TODAY.

Everything has ended..
420days with him.
I finally agreed to the breakup.
Boy, don't be sad, i don't know how you feel now.
I may be wrong, i seek for your forgiveness.
But you said everything is too late.
I cried when i entered "we break bah. i don wan to xin ku le" via MSN.
It's very hurting for me to say.
Perhaps i guess this is want you want me to do bah.
I cried, my mind starts to flash back our memories.
We have been through many things.
You were the one giving me motivation to stand up when i'm down.
Now maybe, i should rely on myself.
I want to tell you how good is my results when i finish the semester.
I also want to hear good result from you okay.
Now, i'm not by your side le, you must take care of yourself hao mah?
Promise me. Cause i will take care of myself too.

I didn't do my test just now. I cried in my heart.
I cried when i was alone back home.
Boy, i want to tell you, i never cry in front of my friends.
You must be happy isn't it?
I have friends and family here whom care for me.
You must look for your friends or family if you feel miserable okay.
Coming weeks, i will be going to taiwan and you going to australlia.
We must be happy and enjoy our trip okay.
When we are back to singapore, everything will be back to normal.

I don't hate you for lying to me or what.
Because i once love you too much.
I never hate you for making me walk this way.
Maybe is the start of something new.
You are my biggest worry, that's why i can't put down.
You must take care of yourself, control your temper well okay.

If we are meant to be together, we will be.
Maybe is not at this time.
We shall focus on studies instead bah.
Takecare. Loves.

I cried while i blogged.
I don't want to leave my tears till tomorrow.

-Just highlighted my hair.

On happier note,
I have a girlfriend call XiuHui.
And also a mistress name Nurul.
Now, a gay call Valerie!

Is holiday now.
AND!
I can't wait for TUESDAY!

♥ 8:57:00 PM

I intended to PON school today.
Terribly no mood for lesson.
I feel so miserable.

Morning came school with Nurul and ANdy!
We walked to school. (:

Class started with 5 people in the morning, then a few came and it add up to 12. When presentation time it only left with 8 people!!!
Lowest attendance of all!

Class ended near 3pm.
Actually can go home.
But slacked in classroom.
Wait for Da Jie to do finish her worksheet.

And i learned Magic Trick from Shenal.
And is so incredible.
Whoots!

Left class with Da Jie at 5pm.
Took bus to Cwp cuz it was raining.
Idiot Andrew pulled my bag. =.=
Anyways, watched Da Jie eat LJS.
Then we stroll around.
I bought hair dye. Yay-hooo.
Then we pierced ear.
The moment the guy shot into my ear,
"#!@"#!@$&^$" come out from my face.
amp;^$" come out from my face.

Weeheehee.
I'm feeling great now.

Tomorrow my neighbour gonna help me highlight my hair.
Yay-ness..


Shenal trying to lift up WeiXiong's hand by his "power".



Flying in 5 days!

♥ 3:25:00 PM

What is wrong with me?!

I think some of the screw in my mind is loose.
Had to fix it!

Damn headache.
School and personal life is such a hectic!
People! Cheer me up!

I wanna go drink.
Da Jie or Nurul. Let's drink together!!!
I'm chatting with them now.

And OMG!
My conversation with Da Jie!


Not in mood of blogging.
And think my wallpaper is cool. (:

Flying in 6DAYS!

♥ 6:19:00 PM

Yesterday is was feeling miserable, horrible and terrible.

Had fever and stomache yesterday but i still drag myself to school.
Not wanting to have lousy grades for IT security anymore.
That's why i never blog.
BUT. I'm sorry team for not contributing that much.
I slept awhile during the 2nd breakout cause i was damn tired.
(As i slept 2hours plus only. Due to discomfort of my stomache the night before)

Anyway, i feel better today.
Fever gone as i slept kind of early last night.
Fall asleep immediately right after i msg-ed my last sms to someone.
But stomach still pain a little.

Facing another day of my favourite module : C208 - OOP, Java java java.
Challenging codes really makes me busy and forget about the troubles that i had previously.
Well, i got straight As for this.

I don't want to suffer anymore.
No point.
I shall be brave.

Flying next tuesday!
And i'm looking forward to it.

I want you to exist in my life as long as i'm alive.
Will you?

♥ 9:59:00 AM

It's FRIDAY!
I'm Da Jie's boyfriend.
All thanks to Mr. Peter Kenny!!

Nurul the Noob is sick!
Get well soon okay. Drink more water.
Just came back from lunch with her.
After lunch i escort her to her block. And i U-turn back to class.
So nice of me. Wahahahha.
(And i spent less than $3.50 for my lunch!! Hoorayy!)

2012 is really the end of the world?!
NONONO!
I don't want!
I don't wish to die so young at the age of 23!
I still have many things to do!

But, think twice, everything is fated.
So does human beings.
But if really 2012 is the end of the world and all have to die,
I want to die with my dearest family and my love ones.
Love one? Hmm. If is at this time, i would want to die with him.
Okay okay.
Stop bullshitting about this.

I shall live to my fullest!
Do whatever thing that i want. (Before it's too late.)

Alright, at least i'm alive now.

Hmm. Hillgrove peeps.
Today is Miss Ng YY last day at Hillgrove Sec.
(Yeap my former english teacher since sec3)

Now, ex 5A3 peeps.
I tried to sms Mr. Balasubramaniam about the gathering in june at his place.
BUT he still haven't replied me!!!
Argh!!

Back to work now.
BYE.

Flying in 11days!
ONE week to school vacation!

You mean a lot to me.

♥ 1:19:00 PM

You cheat my feeling!!
Da Jie, you told me last night that you will come to school.
BUT! You never come.
Da Jie ah. I bet you overslept.

Anyway, my group for today never come. -_______-
Joined PorkChop group.

Today is weird.
On the way to school, SiLing sms-ed me.
She asked me whether i got go school or not.
*Shocked*
And she told me Vanessa, JieYin, WeiXiong never come. -___-
No laughter today.

So, decided to met up with Siling and go school together.
She bought LJS breakfast and i go meet her.
After that wanted to took 902, but long queue.
So we queued for 169 instead.
Bumped into WenKia.
Initially, he was queuing for 902 but we ask him to join us.
Waited for so long.

Alighted at school bus stop.
Sheena poked me.
LOL.
So Me and Sheena walk to our class block.
On the way, Phyllis called me from behind.
So we walk till she reach her block.

Haha.
From interchange to class block got SiLing, WenKai, Sheena and Phyllis.

Today problem was damn "HUH".
Ethernet Hub/Ethernet Switch.


Lunched with Nurul the Noob!
Total lunch i spent less than $4.
Yayy!

Thanks arh Noob for taking this picture when i'm was about to eat.

And i saw Andrew and Leo just now.

Flying in 12days!

I can't imagine my life without you.

♥ 11:52:00 AM

I NEED MOTIVATION!
Cause i never touch my PP report today!
Never type a single word at all.
What happen to me?!!

Having nightmares recently. What happen to me again ah?

Today was so.. BORED.

Last night i cut my right hand accidentally from my table while i was searching for something.
Sob. Hope there will be no scar.

I feel so alone.
I hope YOU will be back.

You are like a sun to me.
Without you, my life will be full of darkness.

♥ 4:57:00 PM

I'm damn BORED today!
I hate the weather.

Last night, some people just have nothing better to do.
That's why he insulted me.
Maybe he is jealous of me or what.
Whatever lah.

Today
Having flu. Block nose. Shoulder aching again. Haix.
Online-ed since 12pm.
Intend to start on my 2000 words report for my PP today.
And 4 hours in front of my laptop, i only started with 200 plus words.
Still have 10 times more words to go.
Chiong arh!!!
But i don't have the mood to do lor.
Stuck in my report.

Well, actually i don't intend to blog today.
Wanna do my PP report only.
But, i have no mood for the report so i come here and blog.
See, i love blogging.

Have been thinking a lot since i online-ed just now.

Sometime i feel like slapping myself.
Why am i so bad.
Maybe i don't deserve him already but yet i still love him and want him back by my side.
What's the point?
I still can't put down.
I need him.
I need him.
I need him.
I need him by my side at this period of time.

Shit. I'm missing him lots and lots today.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

Love me back, boy.
I will treasure you back again.

Flying in 15days...
I feel like singing.

♥ 4:07:00 PM

Maybe i'm born to suffer.
Life has never satisfied me, not even one day.

I never never feel good about myself.
Never never have what i want.
How sad.

Sec 3 did not get into the desire elective i wanted: POA.
I end up taking the elective which i hated: F&N.
Thus, after O's result, i can't choose any courses related to Business in poly.
Cause i did very badly for Humanities.
And i don't have POA as a subject to meet the criteria for Business course in poly.
I hate engineering and sciences, so i end up with the choices of IT courses.

Now in RP, year 2.
Taking modules all related to IT.
Business Application? Also IT stuffs!
And is damn ass tough and difficult!!!
IP address, Binary, Java coding, SQL, DBDesigner..
All this is too heavy to me, a IT-noob.

And! I still have UTs and PP to care.
I haven't start my PP and i don't know where/how to start.
I really don't want to flunk.

First UT result was out.
It was Java. Got C+.
Pass. But i'm not happy with this result.
Cause i get As for all Java module daily grade,
but why my Java UT got a C+?
Very disheartening.

Sometime i think my life is in a mess.
Because i don't know what i want.
Blame me for my stubbornness, selfishness or what.
I just can't put down something which has a great significant on me.
Don't ask me why, cause i don't know.

I scare i will broke down one day.
Now feeling happy outside but miserable inside.

Maybe i just need someone there to shower me love, care, and support.
Definitely not my parents.
They don't understand.

I'm useless. Maybe i don't deserve a good life or the life i want.

Long weekends.
Flying in 18 days.

♥ 7:49:00 PM

Finally...
The And Mo faci never come.
BUT!
The relief faci is damn strict okay.
WTH!
And during the 3rd meeting, the class have "argument" with that faci.
Why Database faci is like that de? -________-

Only 16 people came to class today.
And 5 of them left.
Left with 11people.
So we decide to combine into 2 teams during 2nd breakout.
And 3rd meeting, faci was piss off of our "own decision".
@#$%^&*!

Tuesday i misplaced my Sony Ericsson USB charger in class.
I thought i'm gonna lose it.
This morning i came in to class and i can't find it.
AND thanks to Da Jie!
She happen to found my USB charger at faci desk.
Yay-ness.


Yesterday, although it was Wednesday,
I still have to turn up for school for the Open House thingy at 9.30am!
Before that, met up with Da Jie for breakfast at LJS.
Then Vanessa and Marilyn joined us.
Bus-ed to school after breakfast and we were late.
Overall, the tour guiding the students was tiring.
Everything finish at around 4pm.


And i saw Yahzid after school today!
Last time i saw him was at ECP last month.
Yeap. I saw him at RP.
He came to the Open House thingy with his school.

Oh yah. Nurul wanted to find Mickey Mouse's mouse. (:

♥ 7:30:00 PM

What a day.

Firstly, Da Jie called me just after i alight my 963 at intrchange in the morning.
And she was at Causeway Point!
First time and she's so early.
Went to meet her and when we are deciding what to buy for breakfast,
WenKai,Vanessa and JieYin walk up to us.
Coincident okay.
So 5 of us decided to buy the $2 breakfast from Mac.

After which, Da Jie go find her friend while i join the rest to school.
Well! Interchange was cramp with people so we decided to share and took cab to school.
Traffic jam jam jam.
Reached school and there was a long queue at the lift lobby!
So we took the stairs up to LEVEL 5.

And reached class at 8.28am!!
Lucky not late.

In the morning, they thought my volcano is going to erupt.
HAHAHA.
But in the end, i never.

Anyways,
Yesterday after school was so suay for me.
Took 4 buses just to get home.
Took 963 home and it broke down.
So i took 960 to the next few stops cause i don wanna wait for 963 so long.
After alight at the stop and waited for so long, i decided to take 187 to Westmall.
And 157 back home by 1 stop.
Thank god i have bus concession.

Today we had "hands-on" practical for Data Comm.
Got a bit of Science and Engineering thingy. -_________-
And TAA-DAAA..

♥ 2:28:00 PM

My first UT result of Year 2,Sem1 is OUT!!
I passed! But got C+. -_______-

Java lesson today and i was so blur+stress+annoyed.
Not enough man-power again after changing team.
Suay-ed.

Anyways, weekend was fabulous.
Ate quite a number of good food.
Thanks thanks and many thanks.
And i sang last weekend!

Saturday evening dined in at Fish&Co. But not much photo taken.
Food was delicious.
And i had a last minute shopping for Mother's Day gift.
Heehee.

Sunday manage to sing at Party World with Mum & Sis.
Voice wasn't in a good condition though.
And we sang the 12 minutes song on the very last minutes!

Wang Jiao & Superdog.
But i did NO shopping over the weekend.
How sad.
But i've got a cool & nice watch though.
Heehee.
Double Thanks.

I have the sudden urge of high-lighting my black black hair.
Save money? Or spend money for the highlight?

Lastly, Coming vacation, i'm flying~~~
All in 22 days.
Whoohoohoo..


Love the sunday weekend at Vivocity.

♥ 7:18:00 PM

Skipped class today during 1st breakout.

Problem Statement was damn tough and my nose was itchy. (Might be the temperature in class.)

So together with SiLing, Vanessa, Marilyn, Valerie, Jeremy, WenKai, WeiXiong and Jasper, we left the class at 10.20am.

Took bus 169 and headed to Yishun.

Ate KFC for early lunch.
And the service was damn bad!
The staff insisted us NOT to have soft drinks cause their drink tower was down. =.=
Then when Valerie requested that one of her Zinger be plain and she also ordered Pocket,
(As she help Siling to but too.)
The staff said that she can't fulfill her request cause they cannot make that. -_______-
And. The food was damn bad.
Since there is no soft drink, majority of us drank Ice Lemon Tea and is taste awful.

After that horrible lunch, we took shuttle bus to Orchid Country Club.

Play bowling.
Price was quite reasonable.
Each of us pay less than $8 (including socks and shoe).
Played 2 games.
1st was Girls vs Boys.
But my skill was bad bad bad.
Than for the 2nd game, we draw lots to re-assign teams.
Only me and WenKai switched team.
And don't know for what reason i became so pro in the 2nd game.
I have quite a number of Spares but NO strikes.
For the 2nd game, my team won.

After which we went to play pool.
Played 2 or 3 games.
As usual my skill sucks.

3.30pm we headed to shuttle bus bus-stop.
We queued for the bus.
As we are going to go up the bus, this malay aunty cut our queue!
WenKai somehow quarreled with her.
THEN!
Halfway thru the queue, the aunty U-turned back and knock some of us and squeeze me!
Damn her.
So fat yet want to walk the narrow way.
And my backside was so pain cause of her.
(My backside was rub against the hot hot metal rail.)

In the end, we waited for another bus. Not enough seats. -__-

Home-ed by 852. Slept all the way. Haha.

♥ 6:42:00 PM

Thanks peeps for helping me to do my survey.
And yeap, it is for my PP (aka Professional Profiling)
*Many Many Thanks*

WARNING: This post is long and is full of words.

Today supposingly is our 1year and 1 month.
But.. Haiz.
Shan't talk much about it.

Anyway,
Went out with Da Jie XiuHui yesterday.
Was suppose to meet at 1pm but she overslept.
So we met at 1.30pm instead.
But both of us reached Bugis Station near 2pm. =.=

Strolled to Kuan Yin Temple and we prayed.
Da Jie said i wasn't concentrating as i met with quite of number of fail attempts.
After like 20 minutes, god finally answer to my prayer.
Was a good lot...
But when we went to an old man to interpret the lot...
Behind my good lot there is a unlucky story behind it.
Like 85% of my life are in crisis or what.
Unlucky year for me.
How sad.

After which, we went to eat at LJS.
Then shopped at Bugis Street.

I wanted to look for this HK horror movie dvd for someone.
So Da Jie and me walk to CityLink, Suntec City and Marina Sq to look for it.
But as i went to PohKim, BlueMax, HMV and ask about it, they say they didn't sell.
(I even emailed to TS to ask about the title, they didn't have that either.)
HMV even showed me all their data. =.=
How sad.
Now i pin my hope on Laserflair and Sembawang.

People/Friends, do you have any ideas where will sell almost all HK movie dvd?
Especially those uncommon one.

And ANdy told me WhiteSands have. (But which shop lah ANdy.)

Changed group today and the seat i'm sitting in located at a lonely corner.
Today : Ang Mo lesson + Data Comm UT + Training/Briefing for RP open house.
I wonder what time will i reach home.

Updated @ 3pm.
Just finish Presentation.
Oh man. That Ang Mo keep picking on me today.
@#$?%^&*!
One, he asked me to read the problem statement.
Then presentation, i never talk so he called me..
He said (looking at me): "You are wearing all BLACK, i can't say anything about you."
Me: ^.-
He said: "Let me see who are you.. YahSee. Alright CantSee.."
And blah blah blah.

What the hell!
My beautiful name was insulted by him!
What Can't see. I can see okay..

Why is me today?!

I still owe Nurul a Bubble Tea. (:
And owe Da Jie 2bucks. -_____________-

♥ 9:52:00 AM

Hello Friends/ People/ Humans...

♥ 9:42:00 PM

Today: JAVA module + DBA talk + Database UT = What a good start of the week.
(But i didn't attend the talk.)

So..

Manage to catch The IronMan over the weekend.

Nice show. Rated 4/5.

But is kind of long.. 2 hours.

My PP scope is approved. Okay whatever. I submitted on (last)Tuesday after school and it was accepted by that night. =.=

I will be profiling on Comfort Transportatation Pte Ltd.

So now i have to plan what to do for my PP.
lalala.

JAVA today but i'm somehow stuck somewhere. Ah! Stress.
Really stress, cause i totally don't know how to do.

Grrrrr....

Database UT later and i think i will FAIL.

Today was cold. Damn the aircon.

My appetite isn't very good this few days.
I can't finish ONE portion of food.
Can anyone tell me why?

I find no difference in N95 and N81. Except 5 megapixal vs 2 megapixal.

♥ 3:09:00 PM

Still not bad lah.
Rated 3.5/5.
Almost fall asleep in the middle of the show.

Wednesday was outing with W65H peeps.
But it wasn't turn out to be nice during the night.

There it goes.

Was suppose to meet them at 1pm @ Somerset Station but i was late and reach at 1.30pm. (Forget to bring my Ez-link card.)

Saw-ed SiLing, Valerie, Vanessa, Seng Guan.
And we waited for Ryan and Jeremy. =.=

Headed to Cathay Cineleisure.
(But we had LJS before the movie. Thank Seng Guan for the treat.)

Watched Harold & Kumar 2. (M18)

Vanessa and me laughed the loudest in the cinema.
Rated 4/5.
Is such a lame and dirty show.

Then, My da jie xiuhui came.
And all of us took neoprints.
(Guys said that we are childish.)

Marilyn came.
Bye-ed to Valerie and Seng Guan after that.

After which we went to Heeren.
Cam-whored a little.

Da Jie and me.Playing around with the reflectionLefted there and Jeremy treat us bubble tea. (:Slacked and crap at Takashimaya.
Girls cam-whored in the toilet.

Walked around. Me and da jie talked alot of stuffs.
Night time. WeiXiong and WenKai was no where to be found.
They still haven reached.


WeiXiong was caught in a jam and WenKai said he will reach at 7pm.
But 7pm. He was no where to be found.
7.45pm WeiXiong reached.
And i used SiLing handphone and nag at WenKai cuz i was pek cek.
My class guys.. some CMI = Cannot Make It. =.=

So, we went to Seoul Garden first without WenKai.
Queue-ed and booked 8-person seats.

Then WenKai came. he bought his friend. =.=
Total 9 people.

We withdraw cash from ATM and cam-whored again.

In the end we decide not to have Seould Garden cause 9 people had to squeeze in 8 people seats.
And is $27 each. Not worth.
We head-ed else where.

But still can't decide on dinner.
WeiXiong led us to Fish&Co.
SiLing was piss off.
I was kind of du lan.
And i think WeiXiong also.

Headed to Fish&Co and had to queue again.
WTH right.
Just a dinner took us so long to decide.

Near 10pm and we are finally seated in Fish&Co.
(And i had to be home before 12mn.)

Dinner was $186.25. =.=

Train-ed home after that.

Yesterday was labour day. And i was bored at home.
Not use to it.

I still cant forget him.
The love is still there.
If there is a 2nd chance, i will treasure it.
I really want him back.
I wish for a 2nd chance from him.
Love for him never went down.

But life have to go on mah. Gah!

♥ 2:27:00 PM